A Walk-In-The-Rain!!

How easy / difficult is it to break one cycle of thoughts forever and start another?

Well, it may take an easy instant to snap or it can stretch to a very uneasy stretch on the timeline...

As my fav punch line goes: "It's all in the Mind".

Many thoughts have been circling my head since my last post on the “Must-Attend-Wedding”; May be because I had censored a lot of thoughts cutting it short…

After all, you’ve always been brave whenever there has been a need for it… The present requirement to-be-brave has been completed. :P Now neither is your support sought after, nor do you plan to seek any… So you Release all the unfinished thoughts, Decide to “End-the-Symbiosis” & stay away from potentially dangerous situations. ;) After all, if you are that good friends, you would certainly re-discover your friendship some day in the timeline!!

A rather heavy decision to take… But yeah it seems logically correct. And you somehow feel all light. Even before you know it, there you are smiling J

Ok one issue solved.  What about the major one now?

Well, what’s the time?

Ohh it’s almost 3pm now. And you are reluctantly reminded of the couple of interviews scheduled at 4. You drag your ass back to the laptop, opening your CV & some of the training materials…trying to recollect what projects you worked on in the last 4 years… Although you don’t care about the interview, but still somehow your heartbeat manages to rise in anticipation of the approaching hour… This is your 1^st interview after say, about 5 years..

You get the call from the 1^st MNC at sharp 4pm… The interview has a lady at a high management post & a technical guy (You somehow feel more confident than him). About 40 mins…And BOOM goes your interview… I feel if you are enjoying a certain state, then it’s going right & great J

You get the 2^nd call from the 2^nd MNC at sharp 5pm. This time it is a technical guy, ready with his notes, questionnaire and answers to those :P … He starts asking all small, miniscule details of the tool that you handled last, hmmmm say 8-10 months ago. You laugh him off & in 2 minutes you mutually decide to call off the meeting :P :P

Now you get a call back from the 1^st company with their positive feedback, with a wish to send you off to their client location in Australia ASAP for about 6 months…

BANG!! The Big Issue hits you back…

You get off from the table... stroll about the house. Ah there you find a window & a lush green field in front of it. J

Some uncle carrying vegies for his home... A bunch of kids teasing each other, playing cricket… Some kid going about in circles, riding his new bicycle… Some guy going about in circles ;) talking on the phone, smiling… At a far off distance, a couple of kids returning from school, shirts out, bags still on, playing football as they approach their houses…You keep staring, lost in your own thoughts, biting your nails off :P

No. No. No! No Solution…

You again set off strolling about the house & stop in front of Tiki Mausi & narrate the interview details. She shouts back at you, “What the hell is going on? Do you REALLY want to join? What about the joining for MTech next month? What about TIP Foundations? What path do you want to take?”

Well, that’s THE big issue!!! A million dollar question: Which path to take? You wonder, “Is it only me? Or do others get confused as well?”

You smile back with your confused thoughts & questioning look… She calmly replies, “So the land of Kangaroos it is, is it?”

“Jaanini” (dunno), Is all you come up with…

…To Be Contd.

A Must-Attend-Wedding!!

How do you deal with heartburns?

Oh, I move on...After all it is the way it should be..

But what happens if the gal, you liked once, is still one of your best friends & she insists you to be present on her wedding?

Well, since I have moved on, I dont mind being present to support her on her big day....

That's how the trip begins from Mumbai to Pune to Nagpur to Jabalpur admist the summer heat...Covering about 1200 km of Rail and Road ways. Thank God for the AC vehicles & hotels. The best part of the whole journey unfolds as each halt adds an additional member of your gang n by the time you reach the destination, you have become 5 people from 1 :o)

A get-together after almost 2 years, an anxious wait at the airport (waiting for 1 of us), a moonlight lit dinner at a roadside Dhaabaa, a 3-star hotel room to rest (arrangement for guests @ wedding ), a bottle of tequila specially brought from the duty free region while an onsite visit ;), ordering lemons from the hotel staff on pretext of the bride's mehendi, fighting over the spent lemon quarters, a special singing session to serve the after effects and a stroll near the swimming pool.....The next morning you get up smiling, suprisingly without a hangover and look at each of the faces and think: "Ohh, it's for real, was no dream" :o)

Couldn't ask for more, eh?

The next 2 days follow with the rituals for the wedding and all.

You keep seeing the bride in her yellow and red attires....looking her best... And you go like: DAMN!!

You expected her to look fat and ugly, so that you could think, "O yeah, Grapes are Sour" :P :P

Well, it's neither the-old-feeling-of-love rushing in, nor is it a new-found one.. The best word to explain the feeling is "Weird".

Somehow many thoughts rush in... The old days of your stupidity... Your Naive so-called-Proposal..and your denying it to be a proposal (I still deny it to be a proposal :P ).. The days of hoping that one day "May be She would give this a thought"...

All those nights of free calling (reduced rates)... Her endless blabberings over the phone... Her warnings of not trying to act smart or try to Woo her... Her un-proficiency (if it's a word) of understanding your poems... The first ever sketch sketched by you (of her ofcourse ;) )...

No. Your thoughts do not seem to stop....

Her stupid (Guess only gals can make & understand such reasons :P) stand of not adulterating friendship with love... Your burning of all the letters, records, related thoughts to wipe them away from the mind...

Thoughts still keep spamming you..

Many Negative thoughts keep hitting you... And you keep Hushing them n praying to God for forgiveness & to keep everything around happy n merry-going as they are...

You see people dancing, having fun. And you get confused...

You dont want to Be or look sad and be the spoilsport for others....

Your thoughts do not let you be happy at the turn of events..

Your Self ridicules you at the thought of enjoying at such an event...

And somehow your roomy's voice sings the song "Mubarakh ho tumko yeh shaadi tumhari" in your ears and you laugh out loud looking all stupid :D

Somehow you concentrate on the goodies of the occassion, the food ;), your gang (minus the busy bride ofcourse), the TV in the hotel room and the outings....praying for the MUST-ATTEND-WEDDING to end happily soon, RELEASING you off the gruesome memories....Back to your new world of Opportunities... :) :P

As you move back from Jabalpur to Mumbai, this time in a non-AC-literally burning and stinking train, with your friends besides you, Somehow you like the ambience more than the ac rooms of the 3-star hotel...Feeling happy to have left behind "those thoughts", "those Weird Feelings"; Releasing them off your Subconscious as you embark on a New Journey. :)

...I think my Experiences make the prices I pay for them worthwhile...

India: Re-Dividing or Re-Arranging

Telangana Issue...So much fuss over dividing regions...
When the world: Europe, North & South America, even Indian Subcontinent (SAARC) are moving to form United lands, States within India think otherwise.

It would be highly unfair to either support or not support divisions. Both sides have their own reasons. Lets take this opportunity to go to the roots of the issue.

Problem: As I see it, there are various issues:

1. Non-uniform levels of penetration of development to various areas..... Here development includes knowledge/education centers, employment, infrastructure.
   
2. The whole of the power being concentrated at the Capital city of a State. As a guy from Chattisgarh puts it, before division, people had to travel 14 hours to Bhopal for any high court case, counselling or any other major work...... But now after the formation of Chattisgarh, the capital, Raipur is 4 hours from different regions of the state.

Now, I must clarify, I am not in the favour of dividing regions, but in favour of finding effective solutions for the issues. Lets brainstorm some probabilities:

1. Maximum of the issues would get resolved if India's political & administrative structure take a cue from the corporate houses. If the MPs, MLAs, Municipalities, Panchayats do their job [ONLY requirement is they do their JOB]. This would eradicate a lot of non uniformities.
2. De-centralisation is the key. I agree that we have Panchayats to meet this. But we need more. We need to develop satellite towns and cities across the state, which can cater to the needs of the people across the length & breadth of the State. These cities can have shared networks, so that the burden is eased off the capital city.
3. A strong point to aid the points above is taking responsibility & rising to the occasion. A very strong factor is culture. People grow up to be what they are as per the way they are groomed. Political parties, Organisations, Corporates should develop a culture of inclusiveness, mixing local factors along with internationalisation.

As a common man, an individual, I am concerned with facilities reaching me at the end of the day. I want to see my "tax paying Rs" creating value for me & my family. Be it 1 state or 2 or 3 is immaterial when it comes to existence.

We do not live in a world of seclusion. There is high level of inter dependance between all sections, n that is a great factor fostering evolution & growth. So the solution lies in acceptance; In Enforcing present structure rather than creating new complexities.

Perfection!!

This is my nth attempt at starting a blog....

Every time i have been inspired to write something, I have stepped back doubting my proficiency at display of words!! What should I put down? How should it be put? Well let me think of something cool....hmmmmm….
Should it be a good poem? a nice story? a reaction to some event?
And in the thought process, I get bored and move to other modes of amusement ;)

Now that I have initiated the walk to my freedom letting my self-delusions & apprehensions to die out peacefully; Now that I no longer crave for an external feedback, I finally am successful in giving myself a little happiness in doing something I have wanted to since long…. :o)

Looking at it… It is simply amazing how hard we try to fall out of our natural frequency and to tune-into others’ frequencies….. The point beyond realization is that, all this is done to gain “Acceptance & Appreciation”, which is wrongly identified with love, fame-or-popularity & power-or-control!!

Again the truth is: it’s the damaged ego that “searches for” & “collects” the misnomers instead of the real ones. It is also true that it is difficult to actually achieve the “Ultimate” unless we discover back our natural frequencies…the Innocence, Love, the Un-adulterated, the Self…

So unless it's Perfection.... an Infinity or a Zero, we tend to shuttle & cycle between the analogues trying to round-off, trying to filter, trying to burn & trying to rise out of Ashes...